Panicking

LOL...

I just don't no why i'm so nervous when someone guess everything right about my matter..
Guess he is so smart on guessing or maybe " zhi lian~ing"...

Argg, just don't no why i'm so panic when come to the wrong hours.
panic when he asked me the question over and over again
panic when come to the place near he used to be
panic when he guess everything correct
Okay, should pretend i didn't panic next time! But how, panic is from the sympathetic nerve cell, it is partially uncontrolled emotion..

Omgosh, guess what admiring someone can really make you PANIC! LOL

Sometimes, just sometimes when i received one message or one call from him, can really make my day !
Nahh, just excited for few hours, not whole day actually...
Recently, i like to check my phone notification so frequently, and i think for the past few years i don't usually do that, perhaps, i might reply my friends message for another three days later. LOL
But now seems like things had change, i checked my phone notification so frequently, even i'm super busy but i still spend those little time to check. And and and i like to secretly viewed his fb page although there is no update..

Omg, i'm almost everyday appearing in fb in the "active now" status, but i purposely to on my fb is because i'm waiting him to appear online too..Nahh i know there are many syok sendiri d case here, but i just couldn't stop doing that.

Perhaps, really need time for my recovery process....

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Freaking Same Place!

The story begin with bit and tight of my little memories...

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Time tracked back to six years ago,

I still remember clearly the lrt station which is from my secondary school to the place which i wish to go last time. The duration is almost take about 8 minutes to reach the destination. Last time, with the age almost 15 or 16, i started explore my journey by trying taking lrt to the place where i wish to go!

Ohh gosh, guess six years later, the lrt station still there, but this time the person whom i interested is different. But why there are live in the same area AGAIN!!!Why is the same LRT station again!!! Sometimes, i just don't no why when u freaking think of someone who used to take or walk the place where they usually did, you can imagine that someone was walking there or was doing something there.

I just don't no why, why my freaking heart beat could pulse so fast when i almost near the place!

Frankly speaking, i'm trying to convince myself that don't think so much, don't struggle so much, but my mind, my heart just couldn't do that.Although i'm freaking think that i couldn't think so much that may lead to many side effects like the most popular syndrome INSOMNIA, i'm glad that it haven lead me to other serious condition. Thanks GOD.

I'm used to be optimistic, easy going girl last time, but after the freaking sem 4 holidays, seem like it has change my personality. Now i'm still laugh out loud, i'm still going insane but this time i'm no longer feeling that i'm smile from my bottom of my heart. Now is just SMILE to cover up my loneliness and disappointing or whatever things!!

Okay, well i think i will still continuously give my concern to him although ..... 

 

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The Abnormal Me

It's been quite a long time, i abandoned my blog since  few months ago.
Sorry that i have to said, I'm busy LOL !
I think just an excused to cover my laziness.

Well, it's been quite sometime,
my lifestyle fulled of relationship drama since the ever freaking sem 4 holidays.
I just don't no why things go that way!
I'm usually don't stalk people so frequently, and usually i stalked someone like my bestie, friends whom i concerned, or those freaking famous fb celebrities. LOl. i serious;y don't stalk someone that i'm not interested to, but things don't go what i wanted for!

The feeling of those relationship, is like back to my secondary school day, where i admired the guys whom i fall in love too, I could said that is such a struggling process, it make my mind or my mentally behavior went up to some point of climax. Things such as posted some what called " EMO" status on my wall, as a consequences, my friends such as unimates, secondary school friends, leo friends will personally ask me " Jassie, Why are you so EMO recently". I was like OMG, yeah have to admitted that i'm quite confused and freak out recently but not EMO lol.. and not depress too.

Ohh, recently i make myself busy like a bee, i think more busier than them, the reason being is i don't like any spare time or free time in my life now, if i'm too free or doing nothing, my mental will start torturing me by thinking someone that not really interested on me. Well, i know sometimes, something like relationship cannot be push and cannot be rush, well, i think what i can do now is adapt myself with my current lifestyle. Even my mom also complaint me WHY r u so freaking busy! My uni mates already knew since i met them LOL!

Alright, guess time is the only prescribed medicine for me to cure my current sickness that i gone through on those freaking months. After all, from a girl aspect of point of view, i think my face is thick like a wall, that i could do so many things that i won't usually do.. Oh Gosh, i need a CHANGE in my life now like seriously.

I should focus on my course, friends whom i concerned and the special guy who willing to wait for me for such a long time. And i should stop thinking of him, the disturbance that i make for him, and i know he pretty much not adapt a girl who do such thing in his life like interrupting his lifestyle, and knew many things about him. Oh no, should stop that! Just a friend will do! Is trying to convince myself.

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dREAM

Alice in the wonderland should really woke up from her dream.

No more daydreaming, No more struggling, No more heart beat fast motion, No more up and down feeling..

Everything eventually went back to the normal pace where the place that belong to me.

Although there are some feeling that related to my secondary scene, honestly, it make me anxiety, excited and of cause there is some disappointing scene too..

I shouldn't do that, i make it very clear that I shouldn't think that someone that's not belong to me..

I should just like Alice in the wonderland, she just need to wake up as soon as possible as there is no link between two of them.

Everything is because of the unfaithful feeling, i felt guilty right now but at the same time i felt some disappointing  because of someone!

What should i do, Insomia, irregular heart beat, and also anxiety 

I should not day dreaming again!

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Innocent people who i ever met!

Just can't believe you are the fucking rotten people i ever met!

You like to pretend that you are good to me,

but at the backside, you just like to back stepped people,

you like to fool with your idiot , creative LIE in front of other people,

come on, may i ask you one Question?

How old are you now??

Hey you are twenty plus, but you just simply act like the innocent kid!!

Your attitude, your behavior, your style are just fucking ignorant!!

I know, I knew you are the one who keep on spreading rumor to other people,

Let me just advice you,

You are the ever FUCKING people i ever met!!!

Don't pretend you are innocent, you are not, you just simply a dust in my eyes.

 

 

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放手也是一种解脱

近来，发生了许多不愉快的事，
友谊这咚咚，真的是患难见真情啊！
信任在一段友谊是很重要的，
没有信任，友谊就不再是友谊。
知人知面，不知心呀。
我只渴望有一个知己，
把我的心事，全权告诉她！

所以啊，放手也是一种解脱。。。

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Last Minute Work

Recently, i felt im so lazy,

can't finish works/ tasks on time

always like to delay and delay!!

become day by day, my workload increase tremendously!

Reminder for myself:

1. paint my nails/ cut it in a fittest shape/ lenght

2. cut my freaking long fringes

3. tidy up my messy room which included
a. table
b. wardrobe
c. notes/ books

4. must make some DIY
a. birthday card
b. stocking handmake

5. organize my room / orientation

6. Blog rearrangement

Homework/ tasks
1. academic writing task
2. assignment 2
3. CVS portfolio
4. UTP Folio
5. PBL preparation
6. PSD


Argg so many things to be done, yet i'm still so lazy here!

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I'm Old already

Recently I had been undergoes many challenges tasks,
When i just finish accomplished the mission, i find myself i'm getting older and older,
Both my physically and mentally body and mind start to work harshly to accomplish any missions that I'm going to do!

Oh, no i seem to have a shorter memory filling compared to last few years,
I find myself can't remember things so easily,
the sign and symptom that i have were:
1. easily get tired
2. can't remember things easily
3. easy to become a moody person
4. too much of negative thinking
5. after some tasks/ works - body get tired easily


I'm old!!!!!!!!

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不需那么复杂，简单就行了。

你不必送鑽石瑪瑙給她，更不必買汽車洋房給她，只要能做到下面幾點小事，保證讓她永遠愛死你

1. 提前計劃約會，不要等到週末了，才臨時問她想做什麼
2. 問他今天過的如何，包括他計劃做的事（如：你去看醫生有什麼結果）
3. 練習聽問題，問問題
4. 同情她的問題，別試圖解決她的問題
5. 讚美她的外貌

6. 再特殊節日或場合時，送她一束花，讓她驚喜
7. 她在為你做事時，你要說聲謝謝
8. 牽手時，你的手不要軟弱無力
9. 如果你會遲到，打電話讓她知道，可千萬別編一大堆遲到的理由
10. 她難過時，認同她的感覺

11. 她累時，幫助她
12. 喝飲料時別忘了幫她打開，插入吸管
13. 上班時，打電話問她好不好，分享一些興奮的事，或告訴她﹝我愛妳﹞
14. 不管何時她的感覺受了傷害，給她同情，並告訴她：「很對不起，讓妳覺得受傷害了」然後沉默，讓她感受你瞭解她的傷害，不要提供解答或解釋她的傷害不是你的
15. 她做了頭髮後，要稱讚她的髮型

16. 和她講話時別偷瞄別的女生
17. 旅行時，行程安排鬆一點，別讓她覺得太趕
18. 當她跟你說話時，放下報紙或關掉電視，全神灌注聽她說
19. 為她開門或車門
20. 她難過或疲倦時要注意她，問她要做什麼事，然後幫助她做這些事

21. 出門時，問她需不需要順便買些東西回來，若需要，別忘了去買
22. 幫她拉椅子
23. 讓她看見你把她的相片放在你的皮夾裡，並不斷更換新相片
24. 她每天和你分享感覺時，你要有耐心，不要看錶
25. 每天至少告訴她幾次﹝我愛妳﹞

26. 問她現在的感覺
27. 和她約會前，要將車子喜乾淨，並清理車內
28. 別黏太緊，給彼此留點空間
29. 如果你出遠門，打電話報平安，並留下可聯絡到你的電話號碼
30. 幫她洗她的車

31. 不管何時，你需要離開時，讓她知道你會回來
32. 做愛之前先洗澡，如果她喜歡，再灑上些古龍水
33. 當她對某些人生氣時，把她帶走
34. 按摩她的背，頸子或腳
35. 有時候，就算沒有性愛，也要製造點擁抱或柔情的氣氛

36. 回到家，先別做其他的事，先找她，擁抱她
37. 她和你看電視時，不要拿著遙控器轉台
38. 在眾人場合裡表現出你對她的感情
39. 如果她生病了，隨時問最新病情
40. 瞭解她最喜歡的飲料，所以必要時，可把她最喜歡的拿出來給她選擇

41. 出去吃飯時，建議去不同的餐廳，不要讓她有尋找餐廳的負擔
42. 為她買戲劇，音樂會，歌劇，舞蹈，或她喜歡的表演的入場卷
43. 製造你們兩人可以漂亮打扮的機會
44. 體諒她的遲到或臨時決定改變衣著
45. 在朋友面前，對她付出比別人更多關心及注意力

46. 聽她談話時，看著她的眼睛
47. 買小禮物給她-如一盒巧克力糖或香水
48. 買裝飾品給她（拿她的一張獨照給店員幫忙選適合她的飾品）
49. 在特殊的場合替她拍照
50. 下雨時替她撐傘

51. 對於她講的笑話要適當的發笑
52. 購物後幫她提東西
53. 寫給她一張愛的短箋或詩，讓她驚喜
54. 長途旅行時由你開車
55. 慢慢開車，保持安全，尊重她的選擇，畢竟，她坐在危險的前座

56. 注意她的感受，並說﹝你今天看起來很高興﹞或﹝你今天看起來很累﹞然後問這樣的問題：你今天過的好不好
57. 帶她出門時，學習辨認方向，這樣她就不會覺得該對方向負責
58. 帶她去跳舞或一起上舞蹈課
59. 給特殊節日寫幾張短箋或做個標誌，如結婚紀念日和生日
60. 用剛建立關係時的態度對待她

61. 聽她講話時，適度的發嗯.哼.啊.哦之聲，讓她知道你對她所談的有興趣
62. 出去度個浪漫的短假
63. 買些好的超級強力膠，修補壞掉的東西
64. 燈泡壞了，儘可能馬上換
65. 幫助處理收拾垃圾

66. 看到報上她有興趣的部分，大聲讀出來或剪下來
67. 整齊寫下你接到她留給你的電話留言
68. 保持浴室地板乾淨，淋浴後，將地板擦乾
69. 如果平日是她洗碗，你偶爾也洗一下，尤其在她很疲倦時
70. 住飯店十，請飯店準備特別的東西，如一瓶香檳，蘋果汁，或一束燦爛的花

71. 為她提重的袋子
72. 旅行時，負責提行李.負責將行李放進車中
73. 她洗碗時，幫她刷鍋子或做其他困難的事
74. 製作一張「修理」表，放在廚房，一有多餘的時間就為她做一些表上的事項，不要拖
75. 她準備晚餐時，稱讚她做的菜

76. 把她看的比孩子還重要，讓孩子看見是她最先引起你的注意和重視
77. 和她講話時，偶爾用手碰她
78. 對她當天做的事，和她讀的書，她接的電話表示興趣
79. 修理房子破損的東西，問﹝房子裡有沒有什麼需要修理？我還有時間﹞
80. 鋪床，清理臥室

81. 如果平時，總是她做晚餐，或她太忙太累，請主動做晚餐
82. 她累時，替她泡杯茶
83. 和她同時上床睡覺
84. 出門前跟她吻別說再見
85. 每天擁抱她四次

86. 每天給她二十分鐘專注的時間(這時不要讀報或分心)
87. 如果是她洗襪子，請把襪子翻正面，好讓她省去這道手續
88. 增加兩人獨處的時間
89. 親密時刻或她分享脆弱感覺時，不要接電話
90. 就算路程很短，也要一起走

91. 安排野餐
92. 她操作洗衣機時，你把髒衣服收集到洗衣機旁
93. 帶她去散步
94. 以商量的態度告訴她你要她得到她所要的，也要得到你所要的，但要小心謹慎，不要成為訓道者
95. 當你離家時，讓她知道你想她

96. 帶她最喜歡的派或甜點回家給她
97. 如果平時是她買菜，有空時，陪她一起去買菜
98. 做愛時別忽略了她的感覺
99. 做愛後別倒頭就睡，該有後續的親吻及愛撫
100. 尿尿時別把座蓋尿濕了

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虚伪

做人做的好虚伪，

小气，

爱闹事， 无理取闹，

乱乱发脾气，

做虚伪的事情，

很现实，

喜欢讲谎话，

讲话反来反去，

这就是我，

讨厌这样的我！

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我是一个很差经的人

突然觉得我很坏，很不乖，
时常弄到他很不高兴，很不快乐，
也导致我们的关系变得很恶劣，
我是一个差经的人！

我什么事情都做不好，
学业，人际，感情
突然很恨这样的我！

有些愧疚感，
有点悲伤，
仿佛我幼小的心灵受到创伤！
感觉很难的愈合！

我就是那么的差经！

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~保养~

It's time for me to take good care of my body, face and the messy and untidy hairs,

studied as a pharmacist, I myself should maintain and take a good care of my own appearance.

Last few years, i didn't even treat myself in a good way!

You know what?

I washed my face with cleanser only, i didn't even apply any single toner, moisturizer, foam, cream and others product.

About my hair i just apply shampoo on it, not even bothering using the conditioner to firm and silk up my hair.

About my body, even worst, i know as a lady we should really take good care of our self especially  our inner parts!

Recently, i started to realize that all of the treatment is very important for us, if you lazy, you will ended up with an ugly and improper face, hairs and part of the body!

So i had decided to make full use of my previous bought product!

Surprisingly, i had started to treat myself in a good shape already!

Isn't that good for me!  

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